Last night DW and Ash came back from a long weekend (3days) and after about 3 hours of loud computers, tv, kids and chaos I left and went for a walk. My walk took me to gma's house where I sat and vented and listened to her tell me about her new project. Gma is learning how to make jewelry from beads. She went and picked out about 300 beads for this crochet project and then got frustrated 30 beads in because sometimes the wire wasnt holding the beads and she would have to start all over restringing them.
Poor Gma. She is trying to find interests in her life now that she is living alone and it is hard on her. I feel that she is trying to fill the void of waiting on gpa even though it has been over a year now since he passed. She watches Roslyn for me and is a blessing. I don't know where I would be right now without her.
We talked last night about how much Roslyn has done to keep grandma going and still active. I heard somewhere that after age 65 the spouse of a deceased family member is more likely to drop off and waste their life by not doing anything productive or with a purpose other than ending it. Under age 65, the spouse is more likely to date and go wild.
I want gma to stick around and if Roslyn is helping her stay active and alive then I'm all for it. There are some family members who frown down on gma for watching Roslyn while I'm at work and for really just being jealouse. I feel bad for this situation that Gma is now in and wish that people could just accept what it is Gma wants to do and if it involves one Great Grand Child more than someone else's - well, Sorry. I'm thrilled. My daughter has a stable sitter who also happens to be her great grand mother and someone who shares the same values and disciplinary views as I do. What more could I want?
Am I taking advantage of the situation - you bet. I would much rather have my gma watch and care for Roslyn than some stranger who may or may not let my child run wild and become a monster :) It is my right to want this and God seems to want it too or he wouldn't have provided a way for Gma to continue on.
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